After more than 6 years of being in a study relationship, I am now single again. Its such a surreal feeling that I can’t even begin to describe. The worst of it we end on relative good terms, I don’t know if its because I’m still in shock or what but I feel almost nothing negative towards her. I feel shit load of pain but that’s normal, I think. The thing of it is I couldn’t believe how easy it was on her part, I couldn’t sleep, think or move but yet it seems like it was just another thing she had to do. Technically we’re on break but I’ll be lying to myself if I said that we’ll be getting back together, even if she wanted to I don’t know if I do. I don’t think I can ever go though this kind of pain again. I guess its just dating for me from now on, I’ve always said how single people got it made well now its to put my money where my mouth is. I just don’t know if I can ever again, I know its still fresh and time heals all wounds but this one is deep. Here’s to a new beginning of sort and here’s to love, the most painful emotion of all.
Jee Yuan
“You think your pains and heartbreaks are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. It was books that taught me that the things that tormented me were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, or who have ever been alive.”
James Baldwin (1924 - 1987)
Jee Yuan
“You think your pains and heartbreaks are unprecedented in the history of the world, but then you read. It was books that taught me that the things that tormented me were the very things that connected me with all the people who were alive, or who have ever been alive.”
James Baldwin (1924 - 1987)
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