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Much more of what I feel....;)

Jee yuan

And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days
Cuz I don't need boxes wrapped in strings
And desire and love and empty things
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

And it's someplace simple where we could live
And something only you can give
And thats faith and trust and peace while we're alive
And the one poor child that saved this world
And there's 10 million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

I wish everyone was loved tonight
And somehow stop this fight
Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days

So take these words
And sing out loud
Cuz everyone is forgiven now
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again
Cuz tonight's the night the world begins again

My friend sent this to me not long after i wrote the last blog, ain't that some sh*t...lol

Jee Yuan


Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

Its been a while since I have written here but its ok. I have a suspicion that not many people read this anyway. I have of late been feeling melancholy and I couldn’t really explain it, I partly blame that for the lack of blog. I didn’t feel like saying the same thing over and over again. The good news is as of today that’s done and over with, it disappeared as mysteriously as it came. I have an idea that its probably me getting really adjusted to the single life and having it really settle in finally, but like I said its done. Everything has an end and I deem this the end of the mourning period for my life. Life goes on and all that. I think at this point I’m just sick of feeling bad for myself and still not being able to really talk to people. I think at one point that changed I can’t really remember when it was but it did. I’m more out going again and I think I’ve finally found my tongue too. I still think I’m fu*ked up and I don’t think that’s going to change any time soon but I will try not to let that interfere too much with my life.  I’ve also discover something that’s interesting about myself during this time. I subconsciously compensate for the melancholy and so I actually to most people seem happier which is weird. This weekend is paintball and white water so its going to be a blast. Anyone interested that I have not already invited please e-mail and let me know and we’ll do this.

Jee Yuan

“Some mornings it just doesn't seem worth it to gnaw through the leather straps.”  - Emo Phillips