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I went to see RENT today. It was good; I've been listening to the music for the pass week so it's nice to have a story to go with the music. It was actually good enough I think that I might go see the Broadway Show. After the show my friend and I walked around Time Square I'm actually surprise that she has never really been around that area. I was tell her about all the shows I want to see and that's how became broke, she said if she hangs out with me too much she'll end up broke too…well this is probably true since I do plan to see more shows now that I have the time and the money. Amazing what you can do when you just have yourself to take care of. My cold has gotten better and I think I'll be fine starting Monday. Tomorrow I'm going to eat and whatever else there is to do with my mom so it should be interesting. So this is interesting, after seeing RENT I got one of the song stuck in my head so I started to sing it and my friend was like "awww that's so cute", that has never happen to me. Of course, I don't normally just start singing out of no where but when I was with my ex, she was always saying how I should stop doing it. What a difference. It's strange, the girls that I meet now a days seems so different from the norm. What I mean is that they seem to be more into shows and music and things of that nature. I guess most New Yorkers are, I almost forgotten all about that. I guess the next girl I date will probably be a New Yorker which should be an interesting change of pace. Well, I just have to remember that even girls born and raise in nYc has issues too, but then again so do I.

Jee Yuan

I Should Tell You - RENT

ROGER
I Should Tell You I'm Disaster
I Forget How To Begin It
MIMI
Let's Just Make This Part Go Faster
I Have Yet -- To Be In It
I Should Tell You

ROGER
I Should Tell You

MIMI
I Should Tell You

ROGER
I Should Tell You

MIMI
I Should Tell I Blew The Candle Out
Just To Get Back In

ROGER
I'd Forgotten How to Smile
Until Your Candle Burned My Skin

MIMI
I Should Tell You

ROGER
I Should Tell You

MIMI
I Should Tell You

BOTH
I Should Tell

Well, Here We Go
Now We--

MIMI
Oh No

ROGER
I Know--This Something Is
Here Goes--

MIMI
Here Goes

ROGER
Guess So
It's Starting To
-Who Knows-

MIMI
Who Knows

BOTH
Who Knows Where
Who Goes There
Who Knows
Here Goes

Trusting Desire - Starting To Learn
Walking Through Fire Without A Burn
Clinging - A Shoulder, A Leap Begins
Stinging And Older, Asleep On Pins

So Here We Go
Now We--

ROGER
Oh No

MIMI
I Know

ROGER
Oh No

BOTH
Who Knows Where - Who Goes There

Here Goes - Here Goes
Here Goes - Here Goes
Here Goes - Here Goes

Yes I'm sick again, I don't think I healed enough the last time but it just got worse last night so I was in no mood to go to work and besides people keep always ask if I'm sick why I was at work, so this morning I said screw it. I took a long ass nap today which worked great. I feel better just from that. Baring any stick by the MTA I'm going to go catch a movie tomorrow. I'm going to see RENT the movie, I wanted to see the show but I didn't get a chance so if this is good I'll probably try to see the show before it close. I've been listening to the music from it and its good. I also got a Myspace account now, Ann kind of made me get one so since I had time I made one.

Jee Yuan

"Fortune does not change men, it unmasks them."
- Suzanne Necker

I fight everyday against myself.
Not willing to give in,
But wanting to lose
Struggling against instinct and emotions
Trying to listen to my brain for once
Wanting the winter to freeze my heart away like the lakes.
I fight for normality and peace
Winning hurts as much as losing
I fight to forget, to pretend it never happened
Yet longing to remember the touches
Needing to know it was not for nothing
Dying to fight again tomorrow
Knowing if there is nothing more to fight,
It will be the end.

Jee Yuan

"Every journalist has a novel in him, which is an excellent place for it."
- Russel Lynes

Surfing the net and found these qoutes

"You need time to heal between relationships... there is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship"

"Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better."

Not bad right?

Jee Yuan

I woke up this morning sick, so I decided to take a sick day. It is funny that I took the busiest day in turns of events off. There is a party being thrown for the faculty and staff and we're been talking about going for like a week now and I was most vocal about everyone should go but I just didn't feel like it today. I stayed home, coughing which isn't so good but it does let me sleep in a little bit more. I got some peace which was good but one thing that it didn't do is keep me busy, which sucked. I should never be given time to myself around the holidays, if this is the tip of the ice berg this year I'm in for one hell of an end. I really hope it's the sickness that's doing the talking because its not even x-mas yet and already the melancholy is setting in.

Jee Yuan

"Three o'clock is always too late or too early for anything you want to do."
- Jean-Paul Sartre

I once dated a girl that told me the thing she hated most about me was that I didn't need anyone. I didn't need her, my family, my friends, none of it mattered. I would be fine if I was just on a island all by myself. I think partly she's right, I can be fine by myself which is one of the reason why I'm so strict about either I'm married by 30 or none at all. I was brought up alone, I have no siblings, my parents worked when I was a kid so I had to stay home alone since at least first grade. I had a lot of time by myself and its true that I don't feel the need to share myself with anyone. With all this said, I think people like me need people the most or whether once I have learn to share myself with someone and enjoy it, its hard to go back to being alone. I miss having someone constant in my life to share secrets, thoughts and desires to. I miss it all, and that makes me a fool partly because as much as I think I would fall fast for the next girl, chances are if I fall I'll fall just as hard although at the very least hopefully, it wouldn't appear to be so. Its just a matter of when and who I think or maybe 5 years from now I'll wait around x-mas and b-day by Columbus square and see what happens.

Jee Yuan

"Happiness makes up in height for what it lacks in length."
- Robert Frost

I was trying to recover from the nite of vodka when my phone ring and I was asked to go out drinking again…(I think all my friends are drunks…j/k =P) I normally would probably have said no but what the hell I figure it was girls and how much could they drink and what kind of trouble could we possibly get into. The night started off great I meet up with the girls and we went to eat at this new place that replaced Sweet N' Tart in Chinatown, I think its call Egg Custer King. The egg custer was great but everything else was just ok, but now we had food in our system and time to get the drinking going. First we ran into a problem that one of the girls wasn't over 21 and we had to find a place that does card, so we got on the train wanting to go to SoHo only to go the wrong direction and headed into Brooklyn but because the train was outside we were able to make a call and find out where there is a place that doesn't card. So we ended up going back to Chinatown and here the night got interesting. We come out of the train station and six girls come up to us asking for direction to Mott street so we said we were going there anyway and they can just follow us. So here is the picture if you haven't gotten it yet. I had a girl on each side and then six girls following behind me, I wish I had a camera and for those of you with the yellow fever they were all Asian. So then we went drinking but as the place was just crazy expensive we went to this party that a friend of mine knows. There the girls got drunk…keep in mind I was trying to stay sober and "recover" from the night before. On the upside I got to be dance between two of the cutest Asian girls at the party. The downside was the getting them home part, let me tell you little Chinese girls are much stronger than you think. I think it would have been easier if I just throw one over my shoulder and did it that way, but it was a great nights lots of fun and proves that sometimes its much more fun to stay sober than drunk. Now back to recovery and normality.

Jee Yuan

"Drinking without being thirsty and making love at any time, Madame, are the only things that distinguish us from other animals."
Beaumarchis