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One holiday down and only two more to go not counting my b-day, I hope the other two will be less stressful than this one. I wanted to resolve issues this thanksgiving instead I’ve gotten more questions than answers. Although I think I asked for it, I can’t say that its bad, it just not the closure I was looking for. Now I got more thinking to do than I really wanted to. Oh well, I should have some peace the next few weeks. I have a webcast coming up Wednesday and it should be fun. Scotts bachelor party is also coming up I think on the fifth so that so also be entertaining, although the idea of marriage right now isn’t exactly peachy to me. After that, I’m sure there will be other things for me to do in to keep occupied. I might do the dumb thing and go up to Boston before she leaves for Cali and then after that I’ll have close to three weeks of alone time, which is both a blessing and a curse. I get time to spend with whoever I like but most likely I wouldn’t find anyone I want to spent that time with. There is a cool exhibit I want to go to at the MOMA that shows all the different arts from Pixor. It should actually be something really cool to take a date on so I might just do that. =) well, I’ll have to find a date first but that’s details...>=) speaking of dates, I need to find a place that sells mistletoe and but some and hang them in the Club room that should make things interesting.

Jee Yuan

“Here's a rule I recommend: Never practice two vices at once.”
- Tallulah Bankhead

Happy Thanksgiving to all!!!

See ya all at the end of the week.

"A thing worth having is a thing worth cheating for. "

- WC Fields

As you might notices I change the design of the site to suit me better, I would have done more but I don’t really have much choice because its not my server, so now I have to find pictures that is already on the web and not something I can just upload, which sucks. I’m switching laptops tomorrow and going with a smaller ibook because it’ll just be easier for me and it does have a dvd burner so I’ll use that instead. Mac training went well and tomorrow is the last day, I might be a haircut tomorrow but I’m not sure what I’m going to do with my hair. Maybe I’ll cut it short again, or maybe have it messy again I don’t I want something different but looks good. its getting colder and the holiday season is fast approaching. I’m starting to feel normal again which is good. This is the first holiday in a long time that I’ll be alone and I don’t know its not that I feel lonely but I would like to spend it with someone the question is who? Every year around this time I walk around in the city and I think with 8 million people I think I’m still alone and its not a bad thing but this year its just different. I mean I know the obvious difference but i don’t think its just that, I think the holiday season is just depressing. I know you’re suppose to spent it with family and love ones but in all honestly I just want to spent it with one person. Its not what you think, when I say one person I don’t know who it is, but I just want to spent it with one person. Someone that makes the holidays something personal, something that makes me remembers it. I always feel let down when I have a bad holiday season so I never look forward to it.

Jee Yuan

“To err is human--and to blame it on a computer is even more so.”
- Robert Orben

So the Mac training started today and it went really quickly, I learn some things that was really interesting and little programs you normally don't find out about. Aside from the rain this week started nicely. I think I have gotten pass the anger phase but not quiet the accepting phase. I think I'm in the need replacement phase; it's kind of funny and sad all at the same time. Funny because I now do have the freedom to just go after any and everything I want, sad because I wouldn't be doing for the right reason. The even funnier part is I know what is going on but I can't stop it. I'm looking at girls as replacements but partly because I haven't been just by myself that its like a reaction to attach myself with someone else but at the same time I either don't want or the girl don't want. So what is going to happen is I'll be by myself for a while to let all this past and heal or if someone comes allow and really just blows my mind I would go after it. Its almost like déjà vu because I said something like this after my third g/f and what it was like 2 months and I got into a even longer relationship, I swear I say this now and in a month I'll be married…lol All kidding aside, I think life is at the very least is starting to go back to normal, my emotions are starting to get under control again and such. I'm not sure how this will all play out but I like normal so I'll see how this goes.

Jee Yuan

"I like life. It's something to do."
- Ronnie Shakes

This week has been almost normal for me. I went to watch Harry Potter with Julia, Eric and his g/f. Guess who we ran into? Scott and Toni, it was kind of amazing considering they were just in front of us in the line, if we had another drink we would have missed each other. The movie was great, I really liked it. I was feed, first time I was the one getting feed and not the other way around, it was different but fun. I got home around 1 and played civilization for 3 hours, its actually a great game. I spent the weekend with my mom, help them pick out a new car( my future car), an Infinite fx35, got some nice pick up and much smoother ride. I was going to get a new cell phone but found out that my contract is still running and have to wait til 1/22 before I can get it. Oh well. Its going to be LG VX9800 when I do get it, all hooked up too. Talk to some of my friends and caught up some. Like I said so far this week has been just normal nothing too crazy and nothing that would kill me. Thanksgiving is coming up and so normal is going to go out the window next week. Afterwards I'm going to have to find a date for Scott's wedding, can't go alone or I'll go crazy. I also need to think about what to do for my 24 b-day I think this year I'm going to do something is on my own, I don't know…I don't know if there someone I want to spent my b-day with anymore. So I should find something I like to do. The first 3 days should be easy next week nothing but Mac training 'til thanksgiving. Finally finish Atlas Shrugged, the ending kind of left me unfulfilled, I wish it was more then just oh they've done destroying themselves let us go back into the world after reading 1000+ pages, oh well, back to reading Chronicles of Narnia. I'm about halfway though it so it's going to go much faster then Atlas Shrugged.

Jee Yuan

If we couldn't laugh, we would all go insane.
- Jimmy Buffett