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What do you remember from a relationship? Is it just the good parts, the fun, the love, the stolen kiss, the long walk or is it the bad parts, the fights, the arguments, the tears? For the most part I can say I remember mostly good parts in my past relationships and only the major bad parts and even those fade everyday. The last time I was at a formal with a g/f was for a dance actually at a sorority. I don't really know why I remember that but I do and for the most part I think i am able to recall most of the events of my past relationships. I've been a lot better lately about things of this nature, although I wouldn't say I'm ready for a relationship I think I am finally able to look at the last relationship not as something painful but with an almost indifference. Like a old man look back at parts of his life and go hmmm I remember that girl I wonder whatever happen to her. The part that I'm more curious about is if I'm able to go out there and do it again. I'm at a point similar to after getting hurt you go well I'm not going to do that for a while, even though I really like doing it. Its not that you think its bad, just not something for you anymore. I'm ok with that for now, I know I love it too much to ever give it up completely but I think minimal involvement is all that I can handle. I was joking with a friend of mine that it would be so messed up if the next time I fall in love, something horrible would happen to the girl and I would lose her not due to her or me but to something completely outside of our control. I think at that point I would swear off relationships forever.

Jee Yuan

"If you would be known, and not know, vegetate in a village; If you would know, and not be known, live in a city."
- Charles Caleb Colton

It was one of those days, it rain mercilessly and the wind was strong. All the sign of a bad day, never the less I went to work and then went to a museum that displayed the human anatomy using real bodies. It was over all a good show, there was a part that showed unborn fetuses that was interesting to say the least. I never knew that as early as 2 months it could have so resemblances a person. It was both fascinating and disturbing. Afterwards I walked a friend to work in Chinatown since it was close by anyway. Along the way we talked about different things but mostly about personal life and it was fairly interesting. On my way home, I also ran into another friend of mine on her way to drop of a gift for a party and we took the min to catch up, as I didn't want her b/f to just stand there and as I was heading home. The rest of the night isn't going that great but I'm going to leave it at that.

Jee Yuan

"Women upset everything. When you let them into your life, you find that the woman is driving at one thing and you're driving at another."
George Bernard Shaw (1856 - 1950), "Pygmalion" (1913)

I have posted this video up before but this time for those of you that doesn't understand chinese, there are english subs, and very good ones at that.

Jee Yuan