I had a job interview today and I think it went ok. I was interview by people I worked with and so it made it more relaxing. It was one more thing that was done. I spent my first Valentine alone for the longest time. I thought I dodged a bullet yesterday, nothing really emotional from anyone just a simple Happy Valentines Day e-mail and that was ok. I would have wanted to work out but I guess everyone had plans so it was all good. I got home today and check my desk for mail and indeed I had mail. It was that delayed bullet I was talking about. BANG, center mass…one of the better shot yet. I'm not going to even talk too much about it because the story is the same. I thought I was saved after V-day, should have waited before taking down the wall. At least I could have seen if the wall would have worked or just crumble the instant the shot was fired. Can someone please define love for me? I have no idea anymore, the definition for me has changed so many times that I don't even know what is love. When I was young and naive, I thought love was finding the perfect someone and you would never fight or argue. When I got older, love was finding someone that you cared deeply about, shared a lot of interests and above all not hurting the other person. The lastest one before giving up on it completely was that love was about not giving up, if you love someone you never give up on them not because you don't want to but because you're not able to . The person could have betrayed you in the worse way but if you truly love the person you can always forgive if they are sincere and with time even forget because you love them. Now….I find even that's wrong.
Ever have someone offer you the best. Perhaps even used it yourself, “Oh I wish you the best” The question I have was what happen when the best is what you can’t have. All my life the best things in life have never been things. It has always been moments spent with people. What happen when the best moments in your life has been spend with a particular person and as it happens the worse moment of your life was also spend with that person. What happen when that person wishes you the best and the best you want is to be with that person but it’s already too late. How do you reply to that? I remember in a TV show I saw once There was this exchange:
Stacy: "I'm not over you…You're the one, always will be…I can't be with you"
Gregory "So I'm the guy, but you want the other guy who by definition can never be the guy"
Sometimes I feel like that guy…
I had my boss ask me today what am I doing with my live and I told him I don't want stress and just want to live a simple life, in the same time I want to have some fun before I really do the law thing. I know if I take that path I would not go back on it and it would be the end. The end of a part of me that when I was young I swear would never die, but I think in the end I just can't take the pain anymore.
Jee Yuan
"There are no whole truths; all truths are half- truths. It is trying to treat them as whole truths that plays the devil." - Alfred North Whitehead
Ever have someone offer you the best. Perhaps even used it yourself, “Oh I wish you the best” The question I have was what happen when the best is what you can’t have. All my life the best things in life have never been things. It has always been moments spent with people. What happen when the best moments in your life has been spend with a particular person and as it happens the worse moment of your life was also spend with that person. What happen when that person wishes you the best and the best you want is to be with that person but it’s already too late. How do you reply to that? I remember in a TV show I saw once There was this exchange:
Stacy: "I'm not over you…You're the one, always will be…I can't be with you"
Gregory "So I'm the guy, but you want the other guy who by definition can never be the guy"
Sometimes I feel like that guy…
I had my boss ask me today what am I doing with my live and I told him I don't want stress and just want to live a simple life, in the same time I want to have some fun before I really do the law thing. I know if I take that path I would not go back on it and it would be the end. The end of a part of me that when I was young I swear would never die, but I think in the end I just can't take the pain anymore.
Jee Yuan
"There are no whole truths; all truths are half- truths. It is trying to treat them as whole truths that plays the devil." - Alfred North Whitehead
