Blogger Cafe

How do you know when someone is right for you? Is it common interests? A quick beat of your heart? Opposite attract? Physical attraction? Is there even anyone that’s right for anyone? I have dated people whom I have shared interests, make my heart skip, found physically attractive and have almost completely opposite personality, plus any of the combination. None of them have ended well. I think jadedness is something that I have an abundance of now a day. I have written off physical attraction and the quick beating of the heart as just physical (translation SEX), opposite attraction as something you don’t quite understand therefore it interests you until you have it then losing interest, common interests as just boredom. Sometimes I think too much and that’s bad for me because I end up with conclusions that not only I don’t like but know they are a truth (not to be confuse with the truth as I believe there being multiple truths) I look back at my recent pain and I can’t help but think if I feel this way because I truly love this girl or the simple fact that its someone I want and I can’t have her. The answer to this question is a little of both I’m sure but it doesn’t help. Its really too early for me to be this jaded and yet I can’t see a way to stop this fall. It’s so hard now a day to believe in the good of people, everyone has a motive. What is worse is not they have a motive but that I accept this fact so easily. I look at people and I hold back and I know it. I’m looking so hard for the underhanded trick or the stab in the back that its insane. This is a big reason why I don’t think I should be in a relationship because I more even more cautious when it comes to girls now. If this is what it means to be a grown up or accepting what it mean to grow up I would prefer to be in Neverland.

Jee Yuan

"The truth is always a compound of two half- truths, and you never reach it, because there is always something more to say."
- Tom Stoppard

When I was 14, all I wanted was a girl with big boobs.

When I was 16, I dated a girl with big boobs, but there was no
passion. So I decided I needed a passionate girl with a zest for life.

In college, I dated a passionate girl, but she was too emotional.
Everything was an emergency; she was a drama queen, cried all the time
and threatened suicide. So I decided I needed a girl with some
stability.

When I was 25, I found a very stable girl, but she was boring. She
was totally predictable and never got excited about anything. Life
became so dull that I decided I needed a girl with some excitement.

When I was 28, I found an exciting girl, but I couldn't keep up with
her. She rushed from one thing to another, never settling on anything.
She did mad, impetuous things and flirted with everyone she met. She
made me miserable as often as happy. She was great fun initially and
very energetic, but directionless. So I decided to find a girl with
some ambition.

When I turned 31, I found a smart, ambitious girl with her feet
planted firmly on the ground and married her. She was so ambitious that
she divorced me and took everything I owned.

Now I am 42, and all I want is a girl with big boobs

I just finish watching an episode of Grey’s Anatomy. The end of the episode has what looks like the main character settling with someone good for her but someone that does not make her heart skip a beat. Which of course brings back the ultimate question. Is Settling growing up? Ever since we were little we were told to try for our best and never settle. What happens when your best is not good enough, do you settle? Do you try your best fail and ever try again and settle for second? Or do you keep trying, no matter how many times it fails and how it keep hurting you keep trying and if you don’t get what you want you try until you die. I have no answers. I like to think I’ll try until I get what I want or I die. Well maybe not so dramatic, I’ll try to get who I want or I live out the rest of my days alone. Like a famous movie once said, “…Tell her how you really feel and shame the devil” You never know what will happen.

Jee Yuan

“It is common sense to take a method and try it; if it fails, admit it frankly and try another. But above all, try something.”
Franklin D. Roosevelt (1882 - 1945)

I love today’s quote I’m actually posting just to put that up. I loved yesterday’s quotes too. I think both have great points. I watched Kingdom of Heaven today again and it reminded me of the quote from yesterday. I think that war still hasn’t ended yet as the world is still fighting for that little piece of land. I think unless god comes down and then pick a side, no one should be able to make any claims to the land. Its only fair, we should just turn it into a no religion zone and give it to the atheists.  
Jee Yuan

"If you want to know what God thinks of money, just look at the people he gave it to."   - Dorothy Parker