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Its been a year for the record books. So much has change in this pass year and this up coming year that I'm just starting to get adjusted to. The biggest adjustment I had to make was being single again. This year seems like the year for break ups, almost all of my friends went though it, I remember months before my break up, I was just thanking whoever was up there that I was in a stable and loving relationship and that while I feel bad for my friends, I was glad I wasn't close to going though any of this. I was of course wrong and I think I went though the break up as hard or harder than my friends. Although it doesn't seem like such a big deal in breaking up, it does change a large part of my life. Instead of thinking when I'll be getting marry the question now becomes if I'll get marry. I get more time for myself but that time does seem lonelier. I have a bit more money in my pocket but no real reason to spend them. I no longer have restraint when it comes to talking to girls but very few that I really want to talk with. Its just a lot of subtle but major changes. Added to the fact that 2 of my friends are married, the deadline of 30 I set for myself no longer seem as far as it once did. I was remarking to one of my friend that once pass Chinese new year, according to the Chinese calendar we'll be 26 that gives me a little under 4 years and I don't think that's enough time to even think about getting marry. I guess it's the single life for me until something changes. Let see if I can sum up a year of events in the shortest amount of words. I meet up with old friends, graduate from college, drank til I black out, went back to China to mourn the passing of my grandmother, help g/f move to Boston, have g/f cheat on me, break up with g/f, make more friends, pick up smoking at points, thinking about giving up drinking. That's about sums it up. The last part I'm not sure yet, its just that after all that has happen this year, although I don't think it, I think my body has slowly been rejecting drinking, it doesn't taste as good to me as it use to. I don't know if that's it or I've been spoil, partly because the only drink I still seem to like is Remy XO and that is not a good sign. Ultimately the question of, if I can do the whole year over again would I do anything different and what is my new year resolution comes up. For the first question I don't think I would mostly I think because this year was a sum of a lot of years behind me, in order for me to really change anything I think I would have to go back to the beginning of college, and that's simply not possible. As for my New Year resolution, I think I come up with a few, eat better, exercise more, figure out what I want to do with my life and jump into that, be it law school( meaning no marriage almost for sure) or work in IT( less money but also less stress and a chance for marriage) For some of you reading this I'm sure the question of my love life is going to come up and the question would be in the lines of are you even planning to date, do you have any love interest right now, what actually does dating even mean to you now. To be honest with you, I don't know the answer to any of these questions, all I know for the most part is that currently any type of relationship I would be up for would be more or less an open relationship. I don't think I can jump into anything serious right now, of course I'm going to leave that as a maybe because the last time I gave the definite answer I was so off that its not even funny. Happy New Year guys and girls!!!

Jee Yuan

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