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Its almost 2 and I just can’t seem to sleep. On the upside I just saw Mrs. Henderson present and it was a good movie, very funny and sweet. Its been awhile since I actually wrote something here but it happens. Nothing worth writing about I guess. As you might have notice I have the song Scars on the bottom. I know it’s an old saw by today’s standard but it does reflect how I feel. The problem is I can’t get to the end of the song. Every time I write here it’s the same old story. Sigh…sick of writing it, sick of seeing it, most of all sick of feeling it. Is it so out of the norm for me to try to cut off communication with my exs? I have an ex that asked me recently if she was my friend. I didn’t really have an answer. I said I don’t know because I don’t, all logic and time says that it was a long time ago, whatever wrong that was done has long mended, but I can’t get pass it. Its funny, that wrong was done to me right after high school, and I still can’t include her as my friend, even though we row on the dragon boat together and she is dating a friend of mine, yet my most recent ex expect me to make an effect to talking to her. Worse of all is that I know I feel bad about not doing it. Maybe J was right, I’m still not over her but I desperately want to be. I want to see the world in color again, I want to free from the past.

Jee Yuan

“The most likely way for the world to be destroyed, most experts agree, is by accident. That's where we come in; we're computer professionals. We cause accidents.”
Nathaniel Borenstein (1957 - )