What am I suppose to do? I have some one telling me that she miss me and miss talk to me said everything but the thing I want to hear the most. I can't help but be cold to her not because I want to hurt her, but because I don't want to get hurt again. What am I suppose to say to all this, she needs me to be there for her but who is there for me? Must I always make all the sacrifice? Must I always be the one to suffer though all of these. Where were she, when I was drinking up the bottle, upset beyond approach and given up on love? Where is it all? Why even now after it all, do I still feel for her and love her and care about her? Why am I the one that can't sleep at nights, shakes after the phone calls and wonder if she's doing ok? Am I just that big of a fool?! I don't have it in me to be her friend and only her friend. I don't know how to stay close but not close. I can't pretend it never happened. I can't do anything right!!! I can't get close to someone else, and I can't let this one go. I can't start anything without first finishing this. I thought I have but obviously I didn't. I hurt, I pain…trying being me, try being cold to the person you love, try accepting the fact that she just don't feel the same way anymore but you do. Try being friends with someone you dearly want to be more than friends with. Try it, for a day and come talk to me….
Jee Yuan
"Sometimes people carry to such perfection the mask they have assumed that in due course they actually become the person they seem."
W. Somerset Maugham (1874 - 1965), The Moon and Sixpence
Jee Yuan
"Sometimes people carry to such perfection the mask they have assumed that in due course they actually become the person they seem."
W. Somerset Maugham (1874 - 1965), The Moon and Sixpence
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