Ever just feel like you’re going though the motions of the day but you’re not really there? That’s what it feels like for me. I don’t think I’m really here and yet its like watching myself go though the motion of working, talking, flirting. I try to tell myself to stop but I can’t seem to. I do what it is I do and that’s that. My emotions are starting to get out of hand and I need to get better control of it, one day I’m going to slip and I can’t even imagine what I’m going to do. I’m starting to over think everything, memories pop up at the worst times, and when they pop up its like someone punch me the guts. I got to stop doing all these vices, drinking, smoking. I need a better outlet but I can’t find one yet. I wish there was a simple answer to all this but I can’t find it.
Jee Yuan
“There is never enough time, unless you're serving it.”
- Malcolm Forbes
Jee Yuan
“There is never enough time, unless you're serving it.”
- Malcolm Forbes
1 Comments:
a life of vice will only be as good as a quick fix, rather that trying to stop it, just control it. The only outlet for long-term recovery is you, your will power, and your stability. These things take a long time to heal, believe me I know. But as Chuang Tzu puts it: "Flow with whatever is happening and let your mind be free. Stay centered by accepting whatever you are doing. This is the ultimate." That's all i can really say at the moment, good luck and keep strong Aaron.
Regards,
..an old friend, J
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