This has, by far, been the most interesting week in all my life. I’m going to need a year just to try to recover. So lets sum up everything that has happened, for those of you too lazy to read the other posts. I’ve been dumped, then found out my girl cheated on me, then against my better judgment offered her a chance to come back, only to realize that she would never give me what I want, which is someone that thinks of me, fights for me, respects me. On top of that, perhaps, finally realize that my unicorn although as nice as she is, I just don’t have that kind of feelings for her. The one 9 in my life is not someone I want to be with and the funny thing is I think I have always known that. The other thing I want in life is a girl who knows who she is, what she want and one of the things she wants is me. I think knowing who you are as a person is both a curse and a blessing. I know myself fairly well, I’m a hopeless romantic who believed that my feelings for someone can overcome anything and everything but perhaps I’m starting to figure out that its not just about how I feel but the other person feel as well. I joke all the time to my friends that if I put my mind on it I can get anything and anyone I want. I still think I can get anything I want but the anyone part I’m starting to think no so much. Sometimes I’m just not enough or really I’m just too much. I can’t change who I am but what I can do is deal with who I am and hope that there is a girl out there that can understand me and wants to be with me and I her.
Jee Yuan
“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.”
- Leo Tolstoy
Jee Yuan
“Everyone thinks of changing the world, but no one thinks of changing himself.”
- Leo Tolstoy
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